Actually Asten

So… I’ve been sitting with this for a while, and I think I’ve finally found the words:I’m demisexual and aceflux — and honestly, it explains so much. Let’s break it down.I’m demisexual, which means I don’t experience sexual attraction unless there’s a deep emotional connection. I’m not wired for quick flings or instant “chemistry.” It’s…

Because not everyone finds their people at school gates or in local cafés — and that’s okay. I used to wonder if online friendships were “less real” than in-person ones. I think we all internalise that idea at some point — that unless you’ve sat next to someone or hugged them or popped round for…

Welcome back to Stimmy Bops – the playlist where vibes are everything and skipping is illegal. These are the songs that made my brain light up like a disco ball this week. 🟢 Video Killed the Radio Star – The Buggles A classic. Retro. Iconic. Every synth pop shimmer is like a happy slap to…

When I was younger, people pretended to be my friend. The boys made it clear they didn’t like me. The girls acted like they did — until I wasn’t useful anymore. They smiled to my face and rolled their eyes behind my back. I spent a lot of time wondering what I’d done wrong. Was…

There’s this idea people love to push:“That school is the best time of your life.” They talk about lifelong friendships, coming-of-age moments, prom, leavers’ hoodies. They paint it like a golden age. A highlight reel. But for me? It wasn’t like that.By the time prom came around, I wasn’t even in mainstream school anymore.Because I’d…

Before I ever wrote a word, I was spinning. Not in a metaphorical “my head was spinning with ideas” kind of way — I mean literally spinning. Arms out. Room a blur. Mind wide open. It started as something that just felt good. Comforting. Regulating. But over time, it became something else entirely: it became…

Some characters live rent-free in your head.Amber and Jonas? They built a loft conversion and moved in with matching pyjamas. It started as a silly daydream — a pop star, a fangirl, a what-if. I didn’t expect it to become this. A whole series. A fictional couple with better communication than some real-life ones. A…

There are some days — maybe even weeks — where everything just feels flat. Not bad. Not dramatic. Just… blank.Nothing sparks joy, excitement, or even interest. The playlists sound dull, the projects feel pointless, and even the things you usually love don’t hit right. And in the middle of all that you realise: “I don’t…

We all have those songs that make our brain do a happy little dance – the kind that hit just right, whether you’re belting them in the shower or vibing in your pyjamas at 2am. For me, a solid dose of Disney is instant comfort, nostalgia, and dopamine. So I’ve made the ultimate Disney Stimmy…

I used to be safe. Protected. Free from the clutches of superheroes, comic book lore, and grown adults arguing about which Spider-Man was best. And then… I met Myron. Well — re-met. Fell back in love. And somewhere between quoting The Inbetweeners and planning our future, I realised something had shifted. This man has turned…